It’s a little funny how sometimes, my life just goes along and nothing particularly interesting happens. And then no blog posts get written. And my blog doesn’t get visited. And then I feel a little neglected.
Ok, so I’m not that narcissistic.
Bored is a better way to put it.
But then, just as quickly (and inconspicuously) as life flows into the mundane, beauty can flow into life. Sometimes I don’t even recognize it. Sometimes I’m too focused on the mundane to even notice the colors that are beginning to creep in. Sometimes I’m too scared to allow myself to see them. Sometimes I let my insecurities, my fear, my pain and my needs take precedence and then I see drama and heartache and pain flow into my life.
The past few days, I’ve been thinking about my issues and problems. I’ll spare you the details. But today, I got this revelation about how my personal issues affect people who aren’t even involved. If I do something out of insecurity or fear and it affects somebody else negatively, I’m making an innocent person a victim.
That is so not ok.
I don’t want to be that kind of person. I want to be the kind of person who brings joy and peace wherever I am. I want to bring life and beauty. I want my presence to be like the paint on a canvas — bringing meaning to something that was once dull and empty. I want my presence to be a delightful aroma.
II Corinthians 2:14 says “But thanks be to God who leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of Him.”
I want to be that person. The one who, even though there are challenges and problems, (and even though it’s boring at times), lives in victory.
I’m really not very good a those things. But this is my prayer this week:
Let me be a person who, in spite of what is going on around me, is able to live in victory — and to bring others to a place of victory too.